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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
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so yeah i havent updated in a while so yeah.. umm well i went to cassies like last friday or something and we hella kicked it and party'd it was great.. then went to a movie with jourdain and.. hella drama with jason lately and then on monday i went hella shopping then went to jourdains and then yeah.. and today i fuckin got to skewl at 9:05 and i was 5 mins late for the ride to the marine world trip so the trip i was hella looking forward to i fuckin failed to get there on time.. FUCK.. but any ways i havent been to skewl in a while.. eh i dont care to go.. damn for my birthday i got hella fuckin money and today i have none whats so ever.. and i had like almost 300$....well w/e
later..
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| Time: | 1:57 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. |
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alrite so this weekend like failed miserably! so i went to cass's after doing a bunch of chores. and we go and meet robbie and yeah so then cassie comes and robbie gets all butt hurt and does his lil bullshit thing. and then we convince him to go to the store for us and he goes and then we go off to cass's house and then after a while robbie comes back and hella shit and then fuckin all that bullshit happens and then the rest of the nite was chill.. im not going to get into detail but that was bullshit for sure!! and then fuckin sunday me and jason went to the movies with jourdain and donte and her mom comes to pick us up and then we go to woodland and i guess theres this new law where you cant see a rated R movie unless your 17 with ID and if your not you have to be with a 25 year old person!! what the fuckin that is such bullshit for real!!! and then we went and went to see a movie in davis but the law was there too..fuuck that so we went to rent a movie and everythingn was rented out.. so we went and got ice cream and played hella video games!! good times...
My birthday is in 7 fucin days and that marine world trip is in 8 days!!!!! i cant fuckin wait..im gettin HELLA money$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Time: | 2:49 pm. |
| Mood: |  chipper. |
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wow today was soo werid.. at one point i was depressed, then happy,
then didnt feel good, then felt great, then felt hyper, then felt
blah....weird ass mood today! damn i really hope i can go to cassies
tomorow ntie it would be sooo great. damn i felt so bad for billy cuz
he didnt get his cast off n shit.. damn.. well any who.. i have bass
lesson today.. eh.. i like playing bass its acutally hella fun.. im in
class rite now and theres nothing to do cuz i finished the test early..
damn i hella need to call jason.. damn antiones really weird hes trying
to like cut off his air way.. wow... i cant wait to see jason.. indeed.
<3
Oh by the way, i dont
have my cell fone any more cuz jason killed it so if you need to get
hold of me call my house-758-6902 if you have to leave me a message...
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01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
07. Put this in your journal.
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| Time: | 9:24 am. |
| Mood: |  bitchy. |
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so for the last few days my foot has been hurting like a bitch so i went to the doctors yesterday and tehy told me that i had tendenitis... fuck that its such bullshit!! and for that there is nothing you can do cept
"stay off of it" thats fuckin bullshti for sure! i have to like walk to skewl walk all over skewl walk home... what the fuck am i sposed to do.. BULLSHIT! grr.. but any who... today is a fucked up son of a bitch day.. i really dont want to be at skewl.. i dont feel good and my foot hurts like a whore!!! muther fucker.. indeed.. thomas is a weird one.. well i think ima go do math work..FUN!!!
nah fuck that
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| Time: | 5:06 pm. |
| Mood: |  lethargic. |
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Wow i noticed that my friends usually notice how bad im fuckin up before i do.. rawr.. but neways i had my first bass lesson last night.. the guy was pretty kewl like..hella nice n new wht he was talkin about and hes a great teacher.. i hella understood him and like every 5 mins he would stop to make sure i had it all down.. and like i have been practicing alot and im gettin alrite i guess after one lesson i can play 5 of the lil practice songs and one duet thing in the book so far!! go me!! wow my birthday is coming up soon and i dont no what im going to do for it yet.. rawr.. i know what i really want tho.. funny times.. wow my life is soo boring.. i have to do hella home work over the weekend to get all caught up and do the project shit that no one else is doing even tho we have alex lagarias in our group hes making me do like everything!! @$#&*! indeed!! fuckin smart kids!! fuck em all! well i dont have much to write..
damn i havent been on anything in forever.. my first time on aim and myspace and hotmail in almost 2 motnhs.. rawr.. infact
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| Time: | 1:49 pm. |
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alrite so there was a few things i didnt write in there last time...
if you all didnt no that prom that i had been looking forward to for the last few months...i didnt go to.. thanks all to ms fuckin mari.. she soo like ruined everything for me.. i know that i wasnt doing so well but if she would have taken the fuckin time too look at the progress report i got or my attendance maybe i would have had a shot at going.. but noo.. i have been going to school every day and doing all my work and past due work for the last like month but she didnt care enough to look and then sign the fuckin paper... what sucks is that me and kara had already spent soo much on it..for the car my nails... the tickets... it was just such bullshit!!!
and hmm what else.. well my birthday is going to be weird again this year
yeah i now have the kewlest thing in the world!!!! thanks to jen!!!
damn i dont no what to write in here any more!.....gawsh
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i havent been online in forever cuz i dont have internet so now im on renos computer..but i only have a second.. things are going better... i went to may fair and saw like everyone had an alrite time.. went to whole earth and met up with rachel fader and sam and it was grand then me sam jason and a guy named josh and a chick named kara went and "hung out" at the park.. it was grand.. me and jason have been together 4 months now and is going great... im just sayin wats hapened so far.. umm yeah i cut my hair its really cute! i will put pictures on like later....
well thats all for now i will update lil later!!!!
hey if any one wants to kick it sum time u should call me 8450148 ....i have been so bored latley!!
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| Time: | 10:29 am. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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alrite so this week has sucked really really bad!!! fuckin my mom now officially hates me. so yeah i am failing everything and fuckin like im in trouble for everything. i dont do anything and she fuckin like she yells at me for acutally doing chores and doing my home work! every day she screams at me for being disrespectuful when im being hella nice to her and doing hella chores that she should be doing.. and im gettin soo fuckin fed up with this.. like she makes me want to kil my self.. i swear to gawd she makes me miserable.. and she doesnt listen to me about anything!!! i just dont no how much more i can take of this.. i have been at school every day for the last 2-3 weeks and i have been doing most all of my home work n im trying to get some what caught up.. but nothing is good enough for her.. and i have prom tomororw and i dont have a dress!!! yeah this fuckin fails.. and my birthday is in a month and im not allowed to go or do anything for my birthday. and for the last 3 years on my birthday i have been grounded and not been able to do ANYTHING!! this makes me want to fuckin cry. gah this is sooooo fuckin retarted!!!!!
i havent been depressed what so ever in the last few months but in the last few days i have wanted to die more then ever..
+sigh+
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| Time: | 6:09 pm. |
| Mood: | cranky. |
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i want to say soo much has happened since i update last.. but it hasnt.. skewl is fucked.. they took my lap top away and i cant get it back.. and now is the time where i want to turn every thing in and get credits n shit!! FUUUCK THEM. so yeah prom is next weekend and i dont have a dress or anything.. that makes me sad.. jason isnt here for once.. hes always here.. some times i feel like were fuckin married cuz its just how we act im like a fuckin house wife now i make him food i clean n shit and i fuckin aww what ever no one wants to read that shit.. no one cares.. so i guess i might not get put on anti depressants.. my parents hate me.. grr.. so yeah damn hella ppl have emailed me that i havent talked to in like years!! so yeah chris engles and kristina anninos emailed me the last few days!! HOLY SHIT!! well i dont really have any thing to update rite now so if i think of any thing i will do it later....
i miss having friends..
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Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:16 am. |
| Mood: |  Alone. |
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Okay.. so this weekend was alrite i guess untill saturday nite.. so yeah sat i went to noras and me her and randy went to picnic day and kicked it and walked around for hours.. and then we met up with gary and daniel and passed out more fliers.. and then we kicked it and then randy left and we met up with jen and steven! and we sat and hung out for a long while and then we painted stevens nails and poured glitter all over him.. it was fun. then we met up with jason and then my dad came and drove jen and steven bak to jens. then he drove us to ihop.. and i had asked if he would take us there you no to eat.. so we get there and i ask for money and he freaks so i say i have like 20$ can he at least take us through a drive through and then back to my house and he starts hella yelling at me for all this shit so hes like im fuckin leaving so im like bye and he takes off. then shane calls and nora tells him were stranded so he comes and gets us!! *THANKS SHANE YOUR A LIFE SAVER* so yeah we go and drop me and jason off at my house and jasons hella not feeling good and i hadnt seen him all day so then like n hour later shane comes with nora and k-rizzle to pick me up and i hella ditch jason and i felt like fuckin shit!!! so i jump out of the car RUN all the way home (about 2 blocks) and then get my bike and find jason. i get to him and by then he felt better and shit so me and him go and i see robbie at the park and im like hey i want to get drunk so i got shit faced and it was soo gros i had 2 bottles of RED GRAPE WINE MD 20/20 EEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!! so yeah i knew i was shit faced and i kept drinking.. FUCK! so i guess i stumble home and i get there and sit on the porch and puke my guts up jason cleans it all up and i run inside n he leaves i guess i Fell into my room and started pukin every where. and my mom and dad are trippin not too mad or what not but they keep tellin me imm Hella fuckin dumb.. so yeah i pass out and then when i wake up @ 5 in the morning im still hella sick. so then my parents tell me all the things that happened. and Fuck.. its weird like i remember the things i said and did but i remember them from like hella other times.. like it feels like deja vu. weird. so yeah it sucked Major ass. but i got to go shoppin on sunday and i got a few cute things.. oh and im failing out of skewl and i have the worst attendance in the skewl. i have only gone to 37 full days of skewl.. WOW!!
oh and im gettin put back on anti-depressants.. turns out my depression is back in full swing..
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Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
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Name: Jessie Marie
Birthdate: 5/30/89 *my b-day coming soon*
Zodiac: gemini
Nationality: native hawaiian, native american, greek, german
What time is it: 12:07
Are you sensitive: yes very much so
WHO DID THESE THINGS LAST:
Called you: that i talked to...either jason or robert
Saw you cry: jason
Made you cry: umm sounds dumb but a FAT spider
You went to the mall with: jason
Yelled at you: probly jason..
Sent you an email: fuck if i no
HAVE YOU EVER:
Taken a picture of yourself with a milk moustache and sent it to the milk company: no
Said "I love you" and meant it: yes, i dont say it unless i mean it
Gotten into a fight with your Dog/Cat etc: yeah
Been to New York: no
Been to Florida: yes
California: obviously
Hawaii: yes
Mexico: yes
Canada: yeah kinda
Danced naked: kinda
Had a dream about something really crazy, then it happens the next day: uhh it was a day dream kinda wish and then it came true
Stalked someone: kinda
Had a mud bath: mud fight?
Wished you were the opposite sex: yeah kinda
What time is it now: 12:13
WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER:
Apples or bananas: apples
Blue or red: blue
Backstreet boys or Nsync: nsync while n a car with nora n kristen
Walmart or Target: walmart..
Spring or Fall: depends on weather
Santa or Rudolph: santa
High school or college: i dont no i hate ALL school with a FAT passion
What are you gonna do after this: watch more tv feel like shit and wait for my boy friend to get home
What was the last meal you ate: taquitos
Are you bored: yeah
How many of your buddies are online: buddys.. a small few
Last movie you saw: Saw.. heheh for reals
Last noise you heard: my mom opening the door or Typing
Last smell you smelled: your mothers cooch.. uhh food?
EXTRAS:
Do dreams tell the future: some times
Has a dream ever told your future: yeah
What book are you reading now: The Shinning By Steven King *yeah i no im acutaly reading a real book!*
Nicknames: Jessie, Baby, Hunny Bunz, Hooker, Bitch.. You
Hair Color: Naturally?: brown i think now..Chesnut
Height: 5'3" maybe
Pets: 2 dogs 1 cat 1 fish and does jason count as a pet???
Been so drunk you didn't remember that you were drunk: hahahah last wednesday
Taken any illegal substances: yeah this morning or saturday!! and later today i will..
Gone out in public in your pajamas: all the time.. im lazy like that
Missed school because it was raining: yeah cuz i fuckin walk a mile to skewl.. fuck that.
Set any body part on fire for amusement: hahaha for fuckin sure!! all the time
Kept a secret from everyone: yeah theres something im not tellin you now..
Wanted to hook up with a friend: yeah.. but i dont think ses into gurls.. n i think she hates me now.. and she lives in dixon and i never ever get to see her.. +sigh+ i miss her terribly
Cried during a movie: psh of course not im no sap.. *tear*
Had a crush on a teacher: ewww no.. and mr. perry does not have a nice ass EWWWW....
Ever at anytime owned New Kids on the Block stuff: maybe
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: uhh i dont no
Prank called someone: psh of course
IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS:
Cried: yes
Cut your hair: a lil bit
Worn a skirt: maybe
Been mean: jason says im mean every day..
Been sarcastic:yes
Talked to someone you have a crush on: hmm no maybe on the internet but for a short time and not in person..well when she came over during spring break.. was that 2 weeks ago?
Hugged someone: yeah
Wished on a star: yes
Laughed until you cried: yeah
Played Truth or Dare: no i dont think so
Watched a sunrise/sunset: yeah
Spent time alone: yeah am rite now.. im lonley
RANDOM THINGS:
Are you lonely: yes..most of the time.. even wen im with some one
Are you happy: can tell.. does a fake smile mean happy?
Are you talking to someone online: no
Superstitions: uhh kinda... like friday the 13th cuz i have always had something weird happen that day.. no lie
What is your full name: Jessica Marie Blackman
Who named you: mis padres
When was the last time you showered: uhh good question.. was just going to do that now but this distracted me
What color pants do you have on right now: grey sweats
What song are you listening to right now: nothing
If you could change your name, what would it be: Mary Jane Diego....its my favorite name!!
Sleep with a stuffed animal: yeah my fake bunny.. bear thing
What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? gawd everything i do is stupid
What will your first son's name be: derek, Jesse, Paco, i dunno
Daughter: Mary Jane, Andrea, Camille, i dunno
Favorite drink: alcohal anything.. orange jubalee, lemonade
Scary or happy movies: mm scary..even tho i get HELLA scared
On the phone or in person: in person... hmm on the fone.. hmm i dont no
Lust or Love: lust then love.. you need both!
What was the last thing that you said: how long until i can down more pills?
What is right next to you: carpet or water bottle
What is your computer desk made of: wood
What are the last 4 digits in your cell phone number: 0148
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon: beach...Anywhere we can have sex ALOT
What did you do last night: me and my boy friend jason stayed home cuz we were sick and then we went shopping and played sims
How are you today: achy,, tired,, sore,, weird,, lonley,, sad,, sick,, not perfect
How do you eat an Oreo: open it lick frosting. dip bother ends in milk until ssoggy then eat
What makes you happy: the love of my life jason, good friends, Kara Marie, Water jugs, cigarettes and a bottle of vodka
What makes you mad: not being on the same page as me.. gettin called names.. ignorant people.. being mad at some one makes me angry and feel like shit
What do you want to be when you grow up: beautician artist, in either piercing and tattoos or like make up and hair.. bartending.. just something that makes me happy and that i can have tattoos piecings and alcohal
What are your future goals: be in shape.. have a life... get so drunk i forget my name!.. get tatoos and piercings..live happily ever after.
Fave music: ska..emo..alternative.. ROCK N FUCKIN ROLL
Fave food: mexican...something sweet or spicy or sour.. something with real strong taste
Fave girls perfume: heavenly by victorias secret
Fave guys cologne: Axe or the shit jason wears..uh i dont really no if a guy is wearing cologne and it smells good i probly wont even bother to find out what it is just that it smels good...
Fast or slow: depends on what you mean.. i like sex fast then slow.. .. i like smoking cigarette slow.. hmm i dont no.
Are you too shy to ask someone out: depends who it is.. if i dont no em very well then its out of the question or if i think i will get denied then fuck that but other wise if were really kewl then sure why not..
Fave clothes store/brand: pac sun.. anchor blue
What time is it: 12:37
PART TWO:
Last movie you saw in theaters: with out a paddle..white castle?
Favourite board game: life.. monoply.. clue? i dont no
Favourite magazine: delias or alure
Favourite smell: the smell of a great concert.. like wapred tour.. the smell of happiness. or marijuana..or beach/mountians *santa cruz*
Comfort foods: i dont no
Favourite sounds: the ocean.. the crackle of a clove.. the sounds of some one dear tellin me they love me
Worst feeling in the world: being abandoned, being alone, and being left to die miserable, LOVE
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up: mmm coffee coffe coffee..CIGARETTE!!! Jason. Eww bad breath
Fave place to eat: at home
Do you drive fast: yeah when im mad or bored or unles there is NO cops around
Do you eat the stems of broccoli: some times
If you could dye your hair any colour, what would you choose: white as blonde with black streaks.. or visa versa
How many different cities/towns have you lived in: 2 i guess kinda
Glass half empty or half full: either or
Favourite sport to watch: uhh gymnastics.. or sex or HARD CORE DANCING!!
What is under your bed: some condoms.. some bateries.. a lighter.. stuffed animals.. Shoes.. lots of crap
Toilet paper over or under: over..?
Morning person or night owl: night..
Over easy or sunny side up: fuck if i no.. i like em scrambeled thats it
Favourite place to relax: my house.. some where, where im comfertable with the people there..
Favourite pie: pumpkin, apple..mm PIE
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I ____ Jessie.
Jessie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Jessie, I would ____.
I think Jessie should ____.
Jessie needs ____.
Jessie will never ____.
I want to _____ Jessie.
Jessie can ____ my _____.
When I think about Jessie, I ____.
Someday Jessie will _____.
Jessie reminds me of _____.
Without Jessie, ____.
Memories of Jessie are ____.
Jessie can be ____.
____ is how I describe meeting Jessie.
Worst thing about Jessie is ____.
Best thing about Jessie is _____.
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| Time: | 11:01 am. |
| Mood: |  weird. |
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alrite so this whole week has been fucked up.. like i dont not.. i been hella sick like. i dont no.. well wednesday was alrite.. i got pretty fucked up and stayed home and then like i remember like half of the day and the other half was blacked out.. fuck if i know.. damn and today i felt like shit so i might go to skewl later.. gah jasons been being weird latley.. like i dont no.. and yesterday after skewl his friend picked me up and we all went back to his freinds house and kicked it for a bit.. it was alrite i guess not that bad as i thought it would have been. cept his friend i known for like 8 years.. damn i dont no this weeks ben weird.. but any who.. my birthdays comin up hella quick.. may 30th SHITTT! but yeah i was talkin to my parents about it n shit nd how its like sposed to be "special" cuz its my 16th b-day and i said how it would be hella kewl if i could go to like santa cruz with a few friends and my mom asked how many and i said a random number and i said 6 and she said that would probly be alrite so i guess im taking like 6 ppl to SC with me.. still dont no who alls comin cept jason, cassie, nora and randy and maybe rachel.. eh fuck if i no.. well i think thats all thats new..
Oh cept i might be gettin my tounge peirced if not that then like my industrial or my nipples!
So i guess i dont no what im gettin peirced but im gettin something..Does any one have any ideas of what i should get peirced????
<3
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| Time: | 4:20 pm. |
| Mood: | disappointed. |
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I hate how i cant trust him. I hate how he lies and breaks promises. I hate being mad at him. I hate feeling like this and not being able to turn to a razor or a bottle and a container of pain killers. I hate this feeling that my love for him is just going to waste. I hate how i cant truly tell if what hes tellin me is true.
I truly hate the fact that i cant turn over and have a razpr blade sitting in a box on the side of me bed. I hate the fact that i no where another one is.. and i really hate the fact that im considering gettin it out.
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| Time: | 12:46 pm. |
| Mood: | tired. |
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So all of spring break i didnt do anything well cept have nora randy shane and kara come over for like 4 hours.. and then on the day i really could do anything cassie couldnt.. gah so then me and jason put hella money together and got shit and then we went to nevada/tahoe all weekend.. it was hella fun! i have sum cute pics we took that i will post up later or wat not.. gawsh i hella love him!!! oh and my birthday is coming up and theres some bigs things that might happen!! and then im going on a fat trip with hella freinds!! WOO HOO!! i hope it all workes out!! and yeah theres a whole bunch im lookin forward to!!i cant wait till skewls out!! gawd i hate skewl so much and now jasons in king so hes gone all day!! grr and then hes gettin a job soonish.. well yeah i got bored so i thought i would update a lil bit so far..
I <3 Jason R. Soo Fuckin Much..
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Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:20 am. |
| Mood: |  hungry. | | Music: | Little Sister-?. |
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Alrite so spring break has offcially started and im fuckin hella happy about that but eh... i have some fuckin feeling its going to fail soooo bad!! i have all these plans n i hope they dont fall through! but yeah so yesterday was good ish so yeah i went to skewl (most all of my classes) so i left early and went home n watched my brother n then jason came over. and then later me and jason went and got movies n smoked a lil bit. it was fun. today jason might be gettti a whole lot of money..maybe i kinda hope he does bu i kinda hope he doesnt.. its confusing and i dont want to write all of the lil details. so yeah nessa called me last nite and jason answered the fone.. it was cute.. he was all uh can i ask who this is? and then he looked at me and hes all whos vanessa? haha so i talked to her for a lil bit. i was soo happy to hear her voice!! i miss that gurl! but yeah today is going to be really werid i guess in a sense its going to be eventfull but uneventfull as well! hmm i dont no.
im bored and i never have anything to write n here any more..
well i will probly have more interesting things to write in here as the weeks goes about.
<3
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Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 7:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. | | Music: | Hawthorn Heights. |
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i havent gone to skewl in 2 days.. yesterday i was too out of it to think and i just layed around.. and then today i was having major issues with jason like he came over in the morning cuz i didnt feel good so he was going to sit with me for a bit and then walk me to skewl and then i decided not too go cuz i was feeling soo werid. but the whole time he was acting like he was hella mad at me and was just in a bad mood. and then i started freakin out about my mom coming home and finding him inside and me not at skewl even tho i told her i wasnt going n shit and then i made him leave for an hour. and then like as soon as he left i broke down crying.. and then i called him n told him to come back over and he said he would and then he said he would. so i sat and waited for like an hour and he didnt shoe up so i called back and he said he was leaving then so i sat and waited another hour and i started gettin this feeling like he hated me and didnt want to see me n i broke down and then he showed up and i was hella crying and i just couldnt stop. so we sat down and had a long talk about our relationship n everythiing n gah.. then he got this call and it was even worse!! i ran out crying and then he came and we sat and talked for a lil bit and then he got another call and that one was even worser so i ran into my room and just fel onto the bedd crying and then he came in and we talked more and then we settled things but it took 3 hours.. then we went and hung out outside and we were talking and he said that he had to go to his friends house and i told him that if he left rite then, then i was going to break up with him and he looked at me and then wehn i said i was kidding he was like "thats not kewl i was about to cry!!!!" then we played basket ball and played around.. it was funny. we decided that hes going to start carrying me for a while everyday so he can get stronger.. hah it was funny he carryied me all the way down the street so he wouldnt have to walk by him self.. lol yeah today was retarted.. but jason might be gettin about 1,350 dollars tonite and he said that if he does then hes buying me a ring..cuz like the other nite we talked on teh fone for 4 hours about marrige and we decided that we want to marry each other and that we would die with out each other.. funny were soo corny!! hehe gawd i am so in love!! today was like the only problem we have ever had and like we got over it quick like!! +sigh+ i cant wait till i see him tomorow!! hes coming over in the morning!! damn im soo looking forward to karas prom i just need to send her that money!!! damn and next week is spring break.. and im already making plans as i write! like im hanging with laurel and tom and then im hanging with cassie and then with jason and then for sure with dustin!!!!! and maybe ada and kara!! geez i cant wait for this week to be over i hate it!!
rawr.. im bored and never update any more..
THE END.
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Saturday, March 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 12:10 am. |
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Today fuckin majorly failed and i wanna cry! so yeah i after skewl i met up with jason and we went to his house to get money n shit and then fuckin we go back to my house and i go in and my mom starts yelling at me so i finnally ask her if i can go tonite to the dance n shit and then her and my dad leave..! yeah WTF! so i was sposed to go meet up with nora and randy and blow off the dance and go hang with them and then i was going to hang with cassie and laurel and i wanted to party hela tonite rite! so yeah nora was sposed to call me but never did and then i couldnt get reach of cassie so yeah.. my parents came back and i was like oh i should go n shit cuz the dance just had started even tho i wasnt going to go i had to at least tell em i would be there n shit but nooo they are fucked up and then took off again. and left me and jason home alone.. and then everything hella failed. he past out. home alone.. for like 4 hours...and he goes to sleep!!!!!!!!!! WTF! so today officially failed. and i feel really mad! and i really want a cigarette! and i really really really really really need some alcohal! i need to get smashed! fuck if any one reads this it doesnt matter to me rite now!!! AHHHH!!!
</3 my sober broken heart...
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